Some may wonder why I named my blog, "Blessed Life with Children," since I currently have a single daughter, no foster children, and am not yet pregnant. It would be better named "Blessed Life with a Child." Still, I think my title fits so much better. For one, "Blessed Life with a Child" is just not as catchy, second if we have another child, I will have to change the title, and most importantly, I always think of myself as a mother of more than one.
Although I've had four different foster children, I have been a nanny of two sets of twins, and I have hopes of extending our family, the children in my mind are the children I don't yet have. Ten years of infertility, four foster children finding other homes, and failed hopes of adoptions should cause me to face reality that my daughter may always be an only child, but still I am convinced that I will have a bigger family.
I often find myself saying, "I want my children to..." I usually end that sentence with stuff like, "never question I love them," "have as many opportunities and experiences as I can give them," or "be confident and kind." It rarely crosses my mind that I don't actually have children, I have a child-a single child.
Truth is, I think it all falls down to the fact that I'm not ready to throw in the towel. I still want to expand our family; I still have hope that our attempts will work. Yet, it still doesn't cause me to be any less nervous about the test results we were supposed to get back today. I am well aware that our hopes and desires could be squashed in the next couple of days, but I still hope. Blindly, maybe. So, will we proceed with in vitro? Only God knows.
After six years of infertility, she was blessed with the adoption of her oldest daughter who now is a teenager. Six years later, she finally became a mother a second time, this time with a baby through a donated egg and ivf. Throughout that time, she fostered nine babies and toddlers, met wonderful women who helped her grow, and learned to rely on Jesus. She started this blog with the hope that she could share her joy, experience, and willingness to grow with others, whether they battle infertility, toddlers, or teens.