October 5, 2001
Don't take life so seriously. It doesn't really matter if you get an A on those exams. 13 years from now, you won't be using that degree you're working for anyway, actually you won't even finish this school year, let alone the degree!
Shoot, I probably shouldn't have told you that.
Okay, okay, I know you are probably flipping out about the whole not finishing school this year. No, you are not kicked out or failed out, but you did totally wasted four hours of your life mapping out every exam and all your future classes you'll ever take. You won't be taking them. In fact, those exams later today, you might as well save yourself the headache and skip them. Not a single one will matter tomorrow, because, well, you'll be going into the hospital. See, you know that disease you have, the one that Kevin and Erica keep harping on you to take care of, well, let's just say, since you chose not to take care of it, it took care of you.
At this point, even if you changed your ways, it's too late. You have ignored it for too long. For now, just enjoy that ring Kevin gave you last week, and I recommend packing more than just a couple outfits to go home. You won't be returning for awhile.
Life's going to change for you. You are going to change. Don't worry though, because even though a lot of the stuff you'll go through is not pleasant, each thing will change you for the better. You are actually going to be happy with who you are. Not only are you happier with you, you'll also like Kevin more in the future.
I know, impossible right, but he'll continue to prove to you that he respects you and treats you with kindness. You'll fall in love with him more every year, and he will make you laugh, and yes the wedding was better than either one of us could have dreamed.
I know the big question on your mind is how many babies do we have. I know you want a big family. Your family will be big, maybe not in the way you expect, but so many people will become part of your life. You'll have friends who you love more than you knew you could love. You'll have many children enter in and out of your life that touch you so profoundly, you are different as a result. You'll have hard times, but nothing you can't bounce back from. Every year from this point forward will be better than the last. As far as how many kids will you have, I'm going to keep that a secret from you. Who knows, maybe I am not done having them yet. I know, if you knew that part of your future, you wouldn't make the necessary changes you need to make.
By the way, you'll be a writer. Your grammar gets a little better, you're really no more talented than before, but you write, and you do get paid. Plus, you even teach. I won't be too specific, because the unexpected twists and turns is what shape your life. You live out your dream, but never in the way you expected.
Oh, and no, we have not finished that book. I know, I know, you are probably upset with me right now. We'll get on that, but right now, I have different goals.
Before I go, I want to give you some advice, love God above all else, and love others as you would love yourself. Maybe if you begin making that a priority now or should I say then... I'm not sure. But anyway, if you make that a priority, maybe we'll be better at it in the future. It's what we try to teach our daughter.
Oh shoot, I let that one slip. Okay, no more details. Okay, maybe just one more. Your life will be awesome. You will be content and happy with how things turn out.
Maybe it's all downhill from here, I don't know the future, but that would be okay, because you have been loved and you have loved. There is no greater gift.
Alright, tomorrow your life is going to change more dramatically than you could have ever dreamed. Have fun on that wild ride! Cherish the people who ride with you, you'll be so glad they did! Also, try to teach others not to take life for granted. I wish I would have shared that more. Yeah, I guess that's it.
Angela from the future
This Christian mom is far from perfect, but continually strives to grow and develop. She is an avid reader of both fiction and non-fiction and focuses a lot on personal growth. She loves to share what she has learned through her studies and her own failures, as well as walks alongside other mothers as they learn together the ins and outs of parenting.