Dear Mommy Who Feels Like They Are Failing,
You are not alone! I am currently writing this as my 20 month old spends yet another night in her room screaming because she does not want to go to bed. I have scoured the Internet, asked Facebook friends, picked experienced mom's brains and tried all the methods I could find. I was consistent with each method for weeks in hopes that I could sleep train this sweet baby. Twenty months later and she is still not sleep trained.
My mom friends are often like, "Just stick with it, it will get better." Seriously does it? I do imagine that she will not be screaming in her bed as a teenager, so yes, I imagine it will get better at some point. But are they meaning next week, next month, next year. How long will this "stage" last?
Honestly though, I am tired. I am overwhelmed. I feel like life shouldn't always be this hard! And this sleep thing, it is small beans compared to the other life events that are not appropriate for a blog post. I strive so hard to be doing the right thing, say the right thing, and be the perfect mom. Yet, days are long, and sometimes I just want to check out.
Then I do. I get on Facebook or bury myself in my phone or computer and just mentally clock out. Thankfully I have wonderful parents who dote on my children. Yet, despite having wonderful people to fill in the gaps of my parenting I am reminded by the verse.
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
The Bible actually says "do not become weary in doing good." It's like he is specifically talking to the weary mom who packs the lunches, wipes the noses, kisses the boo boos. He knew we were going to get weary. He knew that life was going to be exhausting. Yet, these small things we do for our children are good. He does not just end it with the command to not become weary, but adds that if we do not give up there will be a harvest.
Too often I think we forget how important looking at our future goal is when raising our children. It's much easier to endure the two hour long tantrum when you know that the future has better things in store.
Now I know this verse has much farther reaches than a mom who is struggling with a fussy toddler, who is trying to make the right choices for her family and not succumb to bad habits or attitudes. But right now, this verse is what I need. I need to know that as long as I keep striving to raise her in the way she should go, no matter how difficult the challenges might be, that someday I will "reap a harvest."
So I will try not to check out as often, though I know I will. I will try to continue to raise my children in the way that is good and I will try to remember not to become overwhelmed with weariness because eventually there will be fruits of my labor. I will try to keep my eye on the harvest that awaits.
After six years of infertility, she was blessed with the adoption of her oldest daughter who now is a teenager. Six years later, she finally became a mother a second time, this time with a baby through a donated egg and ivf. Throughout that time, she fostered nine babies and toddlers, met wonderful women who helped her grow, and learned to rely on Jesus. She started this blog with the hope that she could share her joy, experience, and willingness to grow with others, whether they battle infertility, toddlers, or teens.