The past several months have been hard. I am in my first pregnancy and it has not treated me well. When I have talked to people about morning sickness, they talk about vomiting three to four times a day... try twenty. That would be me. So as a parent of two foster kids and an eleven year old, my parenting abilities have been severely lacking since I got knocked up.
For the most part, I have been playing the "poor me" soundtrack in my head, when in fact, I have been blessed, because I have had amazing support that not everyone is as lucky to have! I play over my failures, how I shouted at my daughter about something that a month ago I would have calmly stated a correction or maybe even added a discipline, or how I hadn't been trying to engage the toddlers in conversation, because I was afraid if I opened my mouth, I might upchuck. Then I reminisce at what a failure I am.
Truth is though, it's not just this time in my life that I have failed as a parent. We all do from time to time. I think with all the parenting books/blogs/articles, oh and let's not forget Pinterest, some of us feel we are supposed to be super moms. We believe we need to be engaging our children in educational play during all their waking hours, cleaning during nap, calmly discussing wrong doings, all while dressed in fashionable clothes, flawless makeup, and perfectly placed hair.
So, I fail as a mom on a daily basis. I either shout too often, play too much tv, or even cry from pure exhaustion. Then I look around me, and I see that all my friends are convinced they are failing their children in some area of life. They feel they didn't do enough school with them, or ate too much fast food, or their house is a mess. The thing is, I look at these same moms and think, "Man, they are amazing moms." So if I can count myself as one of those less than perfect moms, then I figure I am in good company. So I have decided, failing as a mom is okay, I just need to make the decision to start anew after each fail and do my best.
So here's to the failing mom, you are not alone. Brush today's mistakes off, stand tall, and give those sweet children hugs. Today is a new day.... And if you don't get today right, there is always tomorrow.
This Christian mom is far from perfect, but continually strives to grow and develop. She is an avid reader of both fiction and non-fiction and focuses a lot on personal growth. She loves to share what she has learned through her studies and her own failures, as well as walks alongside other mothers as they learn together the ins and outs of parenting.