I often, in the midst of sadness, have trouble seeing why certain things happen in my life. I decide to trudge through, put a smile on my face and hope that I will come out the other side a stronger person.
The past year I have been revisiting old feelings of loss that come with being infertile. My old question, why are you doing this Lord, has plagued me again and again.
Then I remembered something a friend told me while I was in high school. "Don't forget what you have already learned." What she meant was that too often when it comes to God, we doubt things that we know with certainty. Well, I was doubting His goodness in my life.
Yesterday morning, I found myself sitting across from a friend who has had a similar journey as me. I was sharing some of my old wisdom with her, and realized how true it still is today.
So while I worry about whether the in vitro works or not. I need to face the facts. God used my least favorite moments for good. If in vitro leads to tears and heartache, I need to hold my head up high and praise God for the blessing he will give me as a result. His blessings are plentiful.
After six years of infertility, she was blessed with the adoption of her oldest daughter who now is a teenager. Six years later, she finally became a mother a second time, this time with a baby through a donated egg and ivf. Throughout that time, she fostered nine babies and toddlers, met wonderful women who helped her grow, and learned to rely on Jesus. She started this blog with the hope that she could share her joy, experience, and willingness to grow with others, whether they battle infertility, toddlers, or teens.