My LASIK eye surgery did not go as planned. I will blog about that after I've decided for sure that I'm happy with the results. This was a huge reminder to me that things for me usually don't go as planned.
I'm not saying this as a self-pity thing, but as the truth. Whether things turn out good or bad, they never go as planned.
When we do announce if I get pregnant, we will do so with trepidation. We decided to tell before the second trimester, in order to get prayers if I am. If we're not, I want to tell people before they ask. Please do not ask about my IVF cycle. I will announce on my blog and remain very open about it. If you have questions, ask me on here or privately in my email. There are some things that are easier to talk about when you know that the other person won't see the tears.
It's not that I don't want to share, because I do. I love blogging and sharing every little detail, but to speak and to write are two very different things. I cannot cry and speak. I have been known to tell a lie, to avoid the downfall of tears. I know it's wrong, but I cannot bring myself to tell the truth when the truth begets tears. I will be updating when we go into appointments and what the appointments say. I cannot guarantee I will update the same day, but it will be updated, when Kevin says it's okay to share. There really is no need to wonder. If you ask me in person, I apologize if I shut you down. It's just not necessarily something I want to verbally talk about until I'm ready to bring it up myself. This includes close friends and family.
I'm beginning to feel the apprehension of hearing that dreaded no. I know there really is no way of changing the outcome. Whatever happens has been planned by God before Adam was created. I just need to trust that God will give me His best, even when His best doesn't look like what I expect it is.